Trying.

Its hard, after being so frightened for so long, to learn to be alone again. Not just being alone without being lonely, but being alone at all. Its an important skill to re-learn, but I have absolutely no idea how to go about it. I think throwing yourself in the deep end, for at least a little bit of time, knowing others are around if you need them, is a good start. I used to be alone a lot, and really enjoyed it. I wonder where that feeling went, the enjoyment. I think fear kills it a bit, so I've got to find it again. Somewhere.